When people just try to find anything possible to use it against you or just to find shit about you because they feed off of gossip (and that shit might not even be true)..its annoying. Everyone has shit. Everyone. We all do shit. What's new? I'm not saying good or bad, but people make decisions. It's up to you to judge that person or not to. And those people, those people act like those decisions will define them for the rest of their lives. I just hate that about people. It could be any kind of decision. And that person decides to make an assumption of you that will define who you are. I know we are always constantly making observations and shit, but when it gets down to that point that a person is meticulously inspecting every single bit of your life.. is that person even living theirs properly? When people just want to find out shit about you cause it makes them feel better..I seriously don't get how, but really? You need to fuck with my life in order to enlighten yours? I guess. But I guess that makes me the winner in this situation. And I don't even want to be a winner or loser in this situation, just leave me the fuck alone.
I haven't come across a situation like this in a while, because well, I've chosen to limit the things I say to certain people. Now trust me, my life is fucking not exciting and gruesome as other people's are. Like drama and shit, but my life is average. I'm not saying my life sucks, but I'm not saying I'm a millionare on a yacht. But I'm content. You don't have to come around trying to fuck with it. I'm not going to let you. Silence is the bestest weapon of them all.
Just had a flashback of a crush I had on someone "back in the day."
Undoubtedly the cutest boy in school (in my eyes) and I never thought I'd like him or have anything for him.
But that one year, that one year we got assigned to sit next to each other, and we became close and talked and laughed about everything. We liked each other, but of course never had the balls because we were premature. But he started to hang out with those guys..and you were still a guy.. and I didn't like the fact you turned into a regular douchebag, because I knew that wasn't you. Of course there was nothing to do left. I told you what you had become, but we all know that just makes people more defensive. I never really analyzed it like this until now, that that was the closest thing I had to love until Adrian. I'm glad it was you. I don't care how young we were, because there wasn't any sexual tension or anything like that because we were more interested in each other than our body parts. It's nice to think about those things. When things were simple. And the only care in the world I had, was for who you were. Good times :)
Undoubtedly the cutest boy in school (in my eyes) and I never thought I'd like him or have anything for him.
But that one year, that one year we got assigned to sit next to each other, and we became close and talked and laughed about everything. We liked each other, but of course never had the balls because we were premature. But he started to hang out with those guys..and you were still a guy.. and I didn't like the fact you turned into a regular douchebag, because I knew that wasn't you. Of course there was nothing to do left. I told you what you had become, but we all know that just makes people more defensive. I never really analyzed it like this until now, that that was the closest thing I had to love until Adrian. I'm glad it was you. I don't care how young we were, because there wasn't any sexual tension or anything like that because we were more interested in each other than our body parts. It's nice to think about those things. When things were simple. And the only care in the world I had, was for who you were. Good times :)
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