I've just accepted what you said
Keepin' me among the dead
The only way to know
Is to walk then learn and grow
But faith is not your speed
Oh, you've had everyone believed
That you're the sole authority
Just follow the majority
Afraid to face reality
The system is a joke
Oh, you'd be smart to save your soul
Oh, when escape is mind control
You spent your life in sacrifice
To a system for the dead
Oh, are you sure
Where is the passion in this living
Are you sure it's God you servin'
Obligated to a system
Getting less then you're deserving
Who made up these schools, I say
Who made up these rules, I say
Animal conditioning
Oh, just to keep us as a slave
i get out - lauryn hill.
don't you hate it when you're supposedly cool with someone, and they just ignore you for no reason. and they'll be loud and obnoxious with your other friends. they know that you're there. you try to make conversation and they totally disregard you. i really don't get it. i didn't do anything. and one of my biggest pet peeves are when people beat around the bush like that. you think you so sick? then tell me what the fuck is wrong.
thanks.
thanks.
this is a long ass post.
*varsitygold. i'm pretty excited for next year. getting dance captain was the biggest good surprise of my high school life. i really wanna get first place next year no lie. whether it be a disneyland competition or a tiny ass one in marin. we don't practice our asses off to get 2nd place. it's gonna be hella hard next year because half of the kids are gonna be freshmeat, but i know nathan and i will pull through. he's seriously been the one person i can talk to in show choir (that's my grade) about things. i'm so glad he's the other dance captain. i'm trying to get summer conditioning going but steven doesn't think it's worth it. i asked him 3 weeks ago for his opinion and he said he'd get back to me on it, and i haven't gotten a response. =| i'm gonna call him. if we wanna be serious next year, we gotta start now. and my seniors. UGH you're leaving! er, you already left, and i don't think it's proper to even call you seniors. carmen, elaine, keiah, izzy, crystal, eric, curtis, harrison, andrew. man it's gonna suck not having you guys around and to mess around with haha. oh fuck izzy. if you ever read this, i promise i won't let you down next year. next year i'm really gonna enforce discipline. although i messed around a lot last year, i gotta step it up as a senior cause we're the role models of the noobs and whatever. it's going to be a painful and fun ass year for show choir next year. BESTBELIEVE.
*sfenchantees/gdt/reddragons/alhsball/dance? oh boy. possibilities of quitting enchantees next year. it's like the toughest decision ever. ive been with those girls since 2002. yeah it's been hella long since i've been playing with you ladies. but is all the drama worth it? my mom's suffered enough and i really want to be on this team til senior year but everything's going crazy. show choir got really serious this year which means more performances and whatnot. ugh. and school was a bitch, chemistry oh my god. i don't think anyone knows what i go through in that class unless you've had ms landa. ms landa is like crazy ukranian woman. if you get 2 wrong on a test, you've got an F. it's hella hard. so i had to balance gdt/enchantees/showchoir/school. my advice is don't try it.
i just don't know anymore with enchantees, i really wanna stay cause i <3 my girls, but i mean i heard they're talking mess, so does that mean you guys don't want me anymore? say it to my face dude. ashley says me quitting is what coach wants so why should i let him win? it's kinda true but idk dude. i can't believe people were telling me to quit when it was really my fault with the decisions i made this year and you know next year i won't do the same stupid shit i did.
what i did find this year was a new family. my gdt girls. i hella hated it at first shit, i wanted to quit so bad. but something kept pulling me back, i knew how hard it was to change formations if a person left. i hated going to practices. honestly i still do hahaha cus it takes so much time! but i mean it's hella worth it in the end. you've got 20 sisters and an experience that will stay with you for a lifetime. and the day we had the enchantees team meeting it was also the day of hell night. i knew that after the meeting i could run to my gdt girls for support. seriously i showed up to cynthia's house that night in tears and i just sat oh hyzell and dee's sleeping bags just crying my eyes out and rambling about everything. what really got me was that all the girls were there around me and they were there for me. hahaha kristina tho! "WHO'S YOUR COACH WANT ME TO BEAT HIS ASS?!" lmao. i love you. i didn't think hell night would change my perspective on gdt but it really did. these girls are the friendliest people ever. i wasn't really that close to any of them in the beginning cause honestly, one person influenced me to do it, and she was never there. and it just made me hella pissed off how she didn't dedicate herself and i backed her up on everything.
but anyway, the rest of the girls wow like hella changed my life. and dude fcking vicajean, she's got some crazy ass ideas next year and it's making it so much harder for me to decide whether i wanna stay on the team or not.
can i afford to spend most of my time on this team? i mean one ro team is already intense enough. people that do two teams and don't have anything else to do are straight, but i mean those who have other things on their plate, it's soooo hard dude to balance everything.
what really sucked this year for gdt tho was that i never had time to perfect my placements and sharpness so i looked hella sloppy.
red dragons. idk me and eileen are thinking about joining. it's hard to imagine myself on another team except for enchantees. but if i want to play, this is an option. IDK. so many people are thinking about quitting, it's just UGHHH. i wish that everything was like how it was beginning of the season when everything was chill.
lincoln mustangs. do i want to wear a jersey that says that? hm. IF i make it. at first i really wanted to make varsity, but now it's an idk again. cause my gdt girls. and plus the lincoln bball girls are hella two faced from prior experiences on JV. it was just too much drama yet again. plus i lost my love of the game sophomore year and then i found it again this year, and now it's in an unknown position. but the lincoln girls were a part of this problem, trust.
and then this one thing i've been wanting to do since freshman year, dance. i've always wanted to take classes but i've never had the time, so say i dropped all of these things cept show choir and drum corps, i would have time to do this. idk man. ugh.
*drumcorps.what a trip. i'm staying on the team, but things aren't set in stone for me. everything's changed since awards night. i can't see it the same. i feel like the last 3 years have been a waste. all my dedication, all my hard work. this and show choir have been the two things i've been consistent with and it's just a slap in the face when something like that happens to you, especially if it's given to someone younger than you. it woulda made more sense if it was given to someone of my rank, but i guess not. it wouldve made more sense to me if it was that way. my passion for the team has definitely dropped. it's just not the same, and it won't be next year. i feel like i'm being selfish, but at the same time, this team has been the biggest part of my life. not even show choir dude, like it's the reason i stayed at lincoln and didn't transfer to wash. and the year i was looking forward to the most.. it's all gone. that's why it has this kind of effect on me. only time will tell what's going to happen with dc.
if you read all of that, you're a baller.
*varsitygold. i'm pretty excited for next year. getting dance captain was the biggest good surprise of my high school life. i really wanna get first place next year no lie. whether it be a disneyland competition or a tiny ass one in marin. we don't practice our asses off to get 2nd place. it's gonna be hella hard next year because half of the kids are gonna be freshmeat, but i know nathan and i will pull through. he's seriously been the one person i can talk to in show choir (that's my grade) about things. i'm so glad he's the other dance captain. i'm trying to get summer conditioning going but steven doesn't think it's worth it. i asked him 3 weeks ago for his opinion and he said he'd get back to me on it, and i haven't gotten a response. =| i'm gonna call him. if we wanna be serious next year, we gotta start now. and my seniors. UGH you're leaving! er, you already left, and i don't think it's proper to even call you seniors. carmen, elaine, keiah, izzy, crystal, eric, curtis, harrison, andrew. man it's gonna suck not having you guys around and to mess around with haha. oh fuck izzy. if you ever read this, i promise i won't let you down next year. next year i'm really gonna enforce discipline. although i messed around a lot last year, i gotta step it up as a senior cause we're the role models of the noobs and whatever. it's going to be a painful and fun ass year for show choir next year. BESTBELIEVE.
*sfenchantees/gdt/reddragons/alhsball/dance? oh boy. possibilities of quitting enchantees next year. it's like the toughest decision ever. ive been with those girls since 2002. yeah it's been hella long since i've been playing with you ladies. but is all the drama worth it? my mom's suffered enough and i really want to be on this team til senior year but everything's going crazy. show choir got really serious this year which means more performances and whatnot. ugh. and school was a bitch, chemistry oh my god. i don't think anyone knows what i go through in that class unless you've had ms landa. ms landa is like crazy ukranian woman. if you get 2 wrong on a test, you've got an F. it's hella hard. so i had to balance gdt/enchantees/showchoir/school. my advice is don't try it.
i just don't know anymore with enchantees, i really wanna stay cause i <3 my girls, but i mean i heard they're talking mess, so does that mean you guys don't want me anymore? say it to my face dude. ashley says me quitting is what coach wants so why should i let him win? it's kinda true but idk dude. i can't believe people were telling me to quit when it was really my fault with the decisions i made this year and you know next year i won't do the same stupid shit i did.
what i did find this year was a new family. my gdt girls. i hella hated it at first shit, i wanted to quit so bad. but something kept pulling me back, i knew how hard it was to change formations if a person left. i hated going to practices. honestly i still do hahaha cus it takes so much time! but i mean it's hella worth it in the end. you've got 20 sisters and an experience that will stay with you for a lifetime. and the day we had the enchantees team meeting it was also the day of hell night. i knew that after the meeting i could run to my gdt girls for support. seriously i showed up to cynthia's house that night in tears and i just sat oh hyzell and dee's sleeping bags just crying my eyes out and rambling about everything. what really got me was that all the girls were there around me and they were there for me. hahaha kristina tho! "WHO'S YOUR COACH WANT ME TO BEAT HIS ASS?!" lmao. i love you. i didn't think hell night would change my perspective on gdt but it really did. these girls are the friendliest people ever. i wasn't really that close to any of them in the beginning cause honestly, one person influenced me to do it, and she was never there. and it just made me hella pissed off how she didn't dedicate herself and i backed her up on everything.
but anyway, the rest of the girls wow like hella changed my life. and dude fcking vicajean, she's got some crazy ass ideas next year and it's making it so much harder for me to decide whether i wanna stay on the team or not.
can i afford to spend most of my time on this team? i mean one ro team is already intense enough. people that do two teams and don't have anything else to do are straight, but i mean those who have other things on their plate, it's soooo hard dude to balance everything.
what really sucked this year for gdt tho was that i never had time to perfect my placements and sharpness so i looked hella sloppy.
red dragons. idk me and eileen are thinking about joining. it's hard to imagine myself on another team except for enchantees. but if i want to play, this is an option. IDK. so many people are thinking about quitting, it's just UGHHH. i wish that everything was like how it was beginning of the season when everything was chill.
lincoln mustangs. do i want to wear a jersey that says that? hm. IF i make it. at first i really wanted to make varsity, but now it's an idk again. cause my gdt girls. and plus the lincoln bball girls are hella two faced from prior experiences on JV. it was just too much drama yet again. plus i lost my love of the game sophomore year and then i found it again this year, and now it's in an unknown position. but the lincoln girls were a part of this problem, trust.
and then this one thing i've been wanting to do since freshman year, dance. i've always wanted to take classes but i've never had the time, so say i dropped all of these things cept show choir and drum corps, i would have time to do this. idk man. ugh.
*drumcorps.what a trip. i'm staying on the team, but things aren't set in stone for me. everything's changed since awards night. i can't see it the same. i feel like the last 3 years have been a waste. all my dedication, all my hard work. this and show choir have been the two things i've been consistent with and it's just a slap in the face when something like that happens to you, especially if it's given to someone younger than you. it woulda made more sense if it was given to someone of my rank, but i guess not. it wouldve made more sense to me if it was that way. my passion for the team has definitely dropped. it's just not the same, and it won't be next year. i feel like i'm being selfish, but at the same time, this team has been the biggest part of my life. not even show choir dude, like it's the reason i stayed at lincoln and didn't transfer to wash. and the year i was looking forward to the most.. it's all gone. that's why it has this kind of effect on me. only time will tell what's going to happen with dc.
if you read all of that, you're a baller.
JDSKLJSAL.
so pretty much today +tomorrow will be a disaster.
let's start off with my drill is SHIT and i'm really not proud of it and i'm not done with it yet and it's supposed to be done by tomorrow. AGHHHH!
i was making elaine's sign for her dance show thing tonight and i put newspaper underneath the posterboard and spraypaint STILL got on the sidewalk. wtfeeezy. and not to mention my sign looks like shit too! jdflasdjl i'm sorry laine! i had a really old can of white and a stubborn ass flourescent orange! well anyway, while i was making this thing, the fucking wind decides to be a bitch and close my front door on me. hilarious right? well i was like -_____________- fuck this shit! so i went back to work on my sign and i spray painted my sidewalk on accident a second time. hooray. i was about to flip a bitch dude. so i was knocking on both my front doors for a good five minutes only to realize that my dad was probably on the phone yelling at someone and that my brother was playing drums downstairs so no one could possibly hear me.
YAY.
so i asked a random woman on the street if i could use her cellphone and she said her friend has one. wth who doesn't carry a phone these days? ha! well anyway, i dialed my house, my dad, and my sister's phone only to realize that this woman's phone was a 650 number. so now my eye's are like super twitching at this particular moment and in my head i'm thinkin WOMAN WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME! AND YOU'RE STEPPING ALL OVER MY FRONT YARD. i mean yeah she's doing me a favor, but that's kinda rude! she was hoppin all over our flagstones and checking herself out in the relflection from our car. like jesus woman. mm yeah needed to vent about that semi-petty little thing.
anyway, i'm off to get my eyebrows done then go to elaine's thing.
too bad the lady won't get a tip today cause i'm broke! =|
so pretty much today +tomorrow will be a disaster.
let's start off with my drill is SHIT and i'm really not proud of it and i'm not done with it yet and it's supposed to be done by tomorrow. AGHHHH!
i was making elaine's sign for her dance show thing tonight and i put newspaper underneath the posterboard and spraypaint STILL got on the sidewalk. wtfeeezy. and not to mention my sign looks like shit too! jdflasdjl i'm sorry laine! i had a really old can of white and a stubborn ass flourescent orange! well anyway, while i was making this thing, the fucking wind decides to be a bitch and close my front door on me. hilarious right? well i was like -_____________- fuck this shit! so i went back to work on my sign and i spray painted my sidewalk on accident a second time. hooray. i was about to flip a bitch dude. so i was knocking on both my front doors for a good five minutes only to realize that my dad was probably on the phone yelling at someone and that my brother was playing drums downstairs so no one could possibly hear me.
YAY.
so i asked a random woman on the street if i could use her cellphone and she said her friend has one. wth who doesn't carry a phone these days? ha! well anyway, i dialed my house, my dad, and my sister's phone only to realize that this woman's phone was a 650 number. so now my eye's are like super twitching at this particular moment and in my head i'm thinkin WOMAN WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME! AND YOU'RE STEPPING ALL OVER MY FRONT YARD. i mean yeah she's doing me a favor, but that's kinda rude! she was hoppin all over our flagstones and checking herself out in the relflection from our car. like jesus woman. mm yeah needed to vent about that semi-petty little thing.
anyway, i'm off to get my eyebrows done then go to elaine's thing.
too bad the lady won't get a tip today cause i'm broke! =|
that Late Night with Jimmy Fallon is the best thing that ever happened to late night television. it's like snl every night. & the roots as his house band. lovin this shit!
i've been doing nothing but eat and sleep these past couple of days.
and my dad found my report card =( i thought my mail comes around 2 or 3 o'clock. apparently not! shoooot. i thought i was gonna be slick today.
making this drill for vica is killinnnn me. i'm thinking about going with don't stop believin by journey? idk but i have to make it up by saturday morning HELP! haha
i have a killer headache, and it's been around for a couple of hours. =/
DUDE banksy @ the bristol museum. i wanna go soooo bad. regina and i proposed the idea of london to my mom and she was thinking about it. let's hope she lets. it looks helllaaa sick bbrruhhh. pretty much my favorite artist
and my dad found my report card =( i thought my mail comes around 2 or 3 o'clock. apparently not! shoooot. i thought i was gonna be slick today.
making this drill for vica is killinnnn me. i'm thinking about going with don't stop believin by journey? idk but i have to make it up by saturday morning HELP! haha
i have a killer headache, and it's been around for a couple of hours. =/
DUDE banksy @ the bristol museum. i wanna go soooo bad. regina and i proposed the idea of london to my mom and she was thinking about it. let's hope she lets. it looks helllaaa sick bbrruhhh. pretty much my favorite artist
my brother is a horrible driver and he's almost 19.so me and the siblings went to jingletown in oakland today. it's a community filled with artists and they had an open art studio thing today. i only like a few of the artists, most of them were EHH. but yeah one really cool thing was this hearse from the 60's that this guy "refurbished" i guess you could say. it was hella tight. there were like swords and metal shit all over it. it was pretty much my favorite part of the day. and the casket on top was pretty neat. i wish i brought my camera.
anywhoooo. after that i went to fenton's with the family. YEESSSUHHH. banana jr! the picture quality actually came out nice for my janky, masking taped sk3. look at that thing. it was humongous. the pineapple syrup was CRACKIN. i pretty much beasted that minus the chocolate (cause i loathe chocolate ice cream, cept rocky road and other stuff) and a little bit of strawberry. not to mention i had me some chicken nuggets and french fries. HOLLA. fatty status right
there.ever since my brother came back from davis, it's just been bickering and bickering. he talks to me like i'm completely stupid and he has the worst comebacks ever. it usually goes along the lines of "what's your gpa again?" or "how many F's do you have?" or today's was REALLY super pathetic: "what color's that on your eyes raisa?" okay wow commenting on my eyeliner ramon? okay.. -____- retard. i'm so happy he's leaving tomorrow. no mas! but seriously he almost rear-ended a car on the bridge. i winced and freaked out.
chelsea's birthday is on wednesday. i need to get that girl a gift. mmmm summertime dude. hella chill. OHH last night i went to katie &ricardo's party. poppin dude! had a shot, then accientally spilled my 7up on huyen cause a whole train of asians came through the kitchen. ay nako. i only stopped by with leen after her ccu game at elco. ughh i hella miss playing. i really don't understand that "there's not enough space in ccu" kinda thing..cause ajlfajsfka whatever. atleast i'm playing city league. so yeah. anywayy i wish i stayed at ricardo's but leen had a curfew so i went home pretty early.
i'm hooked on restaurant city on facebook. it's all steven's fault for getting me on that thing. anywayyy! tryna finish all my apps today. got my work permit application yesterday with the pops.
supposed to go out with vyvy today er scrapbook with her? IDK. but i'm just going with the flow today.
supposed to go out with vyvy today er scrapbook with her? IDK. but i'm just going with the flow today.
hello back again. i'm probably gonna blog everyday now that school's offa my hands.
so i just came back from downtown with elaine. got 11 job applications. i think i have to be over 18 for some of them. the ones i really want to work for are puma, planet funk (i think you have to be 18?), vans, steve madden, and lids. hahah lids. oh jeez. i'm breaking out like a bitch! oh dear. haha random but i felt a blemish coming on. anyway, hopefully regina can get me a job at like the hundreds? idk i'll do anything, i just need that dolla dolla!
so earlier this morning. my two closest friends were pissing the shit out of me. like ughhh. so i talked to E about it and she was saying how it's rude for me to lag when they're outside to pick me up. like ugh you showed up right outside my house when i didn't even ask you to. you said A called me, but i was in the shower so how could i have known -_____- &you expect me to be ready? we're getting job applications dude. but we ended up not getting them and going to O's work. like okay? i didn't even eat, well because i was pissed. but anyway. i know i run on filipino time and i'm late, but i'm talking about today and not about the previous times. yes i'm sorry about them, don't get me wrong, of course i feel bad. but today's incident doesnt mean you have to be putting "hella rude" and "we are often put in difficult situations &its up to us to make the best of it" in your away messages cause you know i'll look at it. wtf what grade are we in? and then A says to E: "your away message inspires me!" like wow that's immature. thanks. we're supposed to be close friends, and just cause i'm irritating you doesnt mean you can treat me like a bitch you've hated since 2nd grade. c'mon now.
i'm glad i can turn to my '09 friends though. like forreal, there's no drama. don't get me wrong, i love my close ones in my grade, but these guys know wsup. keep me grounded. ilovethem<3 but i think it's cus i've been kicking it with E and A like pretty much every day, so we're bound to get sick of each other. its cool, i'm not trippin.
UGH WAY TO BAIL ON ME TODAY BRUH. =/ thought we were gonna have a good time today? guess not. whatever. this pretty much shows me you can't even commit to a couple hours at the beach...when we even set it up beforehand. it's my fault for taking you for granted, but we both stopped talking to each other at the same time. but idk what's your deal. honestly you were hella boring. shit seriously like just texting? the phone convos would be like 4 times total. idk i shouldn't expect so much outta boys. i don't know why i do! haha maybe cus i'm used to having them call. i guess. whatever. i'm so whatever about guys now. they just give me bullshit excuses. i try to make things work, they just don't reciprocate. moving on..
so i just came back from downtown with elaine. got 11 job applications. i think i have to be over 18 for some of them. the ones i really want to work for are puma, planet funk (i think you have to be 18?), vans, steve madden, and lids. hahah lids. oh jeez. i'm breaking out like a bitch! oh dear. haha random but i felt a blemish coming on. anyway, hopefully regina can get me a job at like the hundreds? idk i'll do anything, i just need that dolla dolla!
so earlier this morning. my two closest friends were pissing the shit out of me. like ughhh. so i talked to E about it and she was saying how it's rude for me to lag when they're outside to pick me up. like ugh you showed up right outside my house when i didn't even ask you to. you said A called me, but i was in the shower so how could i have known -_____- &you expect me to be ready? we're getting job applications dude. but we ended up not getting them and going to O's work. like okay? i didn't even eat, well because i was pissed. but anyway. i know i run on filipino time and i'm late, but i'm talking about today and not about the previous times. yes i'm sorry about them, don't get me wrong, of course i feel bad. but today's incident doesnt mean you have to be putting "hella rude" and "we are often put in difficult situations &its up to us to make the best of it" in your away messages cause you know i'll look at it. wtf what grade are we in? and then A says to E: "your away message inspires me!" like wow that's immature. thanks. we're supposed to be close friends, and just cause i'm irritating you doesnt mean you can treat me like a bitch you've hated since 2nd grade. c'mon now.
i'm glad i can turn to my '09 friends though. like forreal, there's no drama. don't get me wrong, i love my close ones in my grade, but these guys know wsup. keep me grounded. ilovethem<3 but i think it's cus i've been kicking it with E and A like pretty much every day, so we're bound to get sick of each other. its cool, i'm not trippin.
UGH WAY TO BAIL ON ME TODAY BRUH. =/ thought we were gonna have a good time today? guess not. whatever. this pretty much shows me you can't even commit to a couple hours at the beach...when we even set it up beforehand. it's my fault for taking you for granted, but we both stopped talking to each other at the same time. but idk what's your deal. honestly you were hella boring. shit seriously like just texting? the phone convos would be like 4 times total. idk i shouldn't expect so much outta boys. i don't know why i do! haha maybe cus i'm used to having them call. i guess. whatever. i'm so whatever about guys now. they just give me bullshit excuses. i try to make things work, they just don't reciprocate. moving on..
HI NEEDA UPDATE.
sooo after having a wonderful convo with my girl elaine, i decided i wanted to put some input on this whole boy situation.
recently, i've been having a new approach which is: no expectation, no disappointments. &after reading a previous wthellz?! entry, i realized us ladies do HELLA shit for guys. like we plan cutesy things, we dress up, we go the extra mile. don't get me wrong, the boys do it too, but most of the time, it's US. haha sorry. but yeah, the whole "chase" can be fun but you kinda know what you're getting into.
ladies, if you think he's leading you on, he probably is. it's a given fact. even oprah said so haha! so you KNOW it's LEGIT (:
anyway, i hate bullshit. to the max. like how about this scenario:
"hey we should def kick it in the summer!"
"yeah we should but idk i have practice in the summer and i got work"
alright that's straight up bullshit right there. seriously though, i mean if you really want to, you'd make time. and we're all busy so don't give that excuse. but yeah i know what it's like to be busy. TRUST. but if you got a job and practice, homie, there's a thing called SUNDAYS. ANDDD it's summer. so sorry that doesn't work. yikes.
and today this boy tells me "i'll let you know about tm cus my cousin wants me to go with her" hm. well we kinda planned to hang out tm ahead of time, sooo why can't you just tell your cousin you're gonna kick it with me? &this is a FIRST date ladies and beans. so its not like i see him all the time. at first i was irritated, but whatever, life goes on.
in conclusion, boys are boys and most of the time need to be flushed down the toilet. but we needa stop thinking about what theyre thinking cause half the time, they aren't even thinking. ...about us! well yeah, we all know that us ladies talk more and are more involved in our emotions than guys. dudes just chill, eat, sleep, play sports, watch tv and/or play video games, and fuck. and that can piss a girl off immensely while she's on her rag ha! but as long as we don't give a fuck, nothing can hurt us. THE END.
**EDIT. ^^so that sounds pretty sexist, feminist whatever. but if i said it nicer, you wouldn't get my point ;D
sooo after having a wonderful convo with my girl elaine, i decided i wanted to put some input on this whole boy situation.
recently, i've been having a new approach which is: no expectation, no disappointments. &after reading a previous wthellz?! entry, i realized us ladies do HELLA shit for guys. like we plan cutesy things, we dress up, we go the extra mile. don't get me wrong, the boys do it too, but most of the time, it's US. haha sorry. but yeah, the whole "chase" can be fun but you kinda know what you're getting into.
ladies, if you think he's leading you on, he probably is. it's a given fact. even oprah said so haha! so you KNOW it's LEGIT (:
anyway, i hate bullshit. to the max. like how about this scenario:
"hey we should def kick it in the summer!"
"yeah we should but idk i have practice in the summer and i got work"
alright that's straight up bullshit right there. seriously though, i mean if you really want to, you'd make time. and we're all busy so don't give that excuse. but yeah i know what it's like to be busy. TRUST. but if you got a job and practice, homie, there's a thing called SUNDAYS. ANDDD it's summer. so sorry that doesn't work. yikes.
and today this boy tells me "i'll let you know about tm cus my cousin wants me to go with her" hm. well we kinda planned to hang out tm ahead of time, sooo why can't you just tell your cousin you're gonna kick it with me? &this is a FIRST date ladies and beans. so its not like i see him all the time. at first i was irritated, but whatever, life goes on.
in conclusion, boys are boys and most of the time need to be flushed down the toilet. but we needa stop thinking about what theyre thinking cause half the time, they aren't even thinking. ...about us! well yeah, we all know that us ladies talk more and are more involved in our emotions than guys. dudes just chill, eat, sleep, play sports, watch tv and/or play video games, and fuck. and that can piss a girl off immensely while she's on her rag ha! but as long as we don't give a fuck, nothing can hurt us. THE END.
**EDIT. ^^so that sounds pretty sexist, feminist whatever. but if i said it nicer, you wouldn't get my point ;D
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