supersickwidddityadidaa

I want black and deep purple lipstick.
I would also like to dye my hair black with some blonde again. like every damn fucking filipino on the earth. GAH. the blonde IS addicting though. i just like how the colors contrast.
i don't understand the meaning of foundation besides performances, photo shoots, celebrities i guess. idk its your skin.. so you shouldn't cover it up with stuff? i have my nars and i love it, a really well-made product.. but i barely use it. it's like pointless. i bought it cause i felt like it was an "essential" for girls to have in their make up bags. i guess so, but i'm not using it. OH and then you gotta wipe that shit off at the end of the day. such a hassle.
IM SO SORE. worked out last night with jack jack. first time in a reeeaaalllyy long time lets just say. felt really good though. ugh but walking down stairs is NOT the business!

I saw my grandpa in my dream a few nights ago. I didn't know who he was, he told me it was him. We hugged. Then my body felt really weird during the middle of the night after the dream was over. It wasn't sleep paralysis ..the ghost on top of you thing.. cause i was moving.. idk what it was. Weird yet interesting. I cried the following morning. I miss my grandparents. I wish they were here. This house is so empty. Most of the time it's just me and my mom. Everyone's away somewhere. There used to be 8 people living here at a point in my life. Now my dad is back from his job, but who knows the next time he'll leave again. It might be tomorrow, two days from now, whatever. he's gone so frequently that at one point i forgot i had a dad.

homework time.