Hello, back again :)

The tumblr world got me caught up posting pictures and shit.

I missed my little blogger. Almost completely forgot about it. But anyway, I am slipping in school. I thought it was cause I was working too much. Well it was because I was working too much, and then I got that out of the way, and now it's cause I'm just wandering aimlessly. (That was the biggest run-on ever, who cares..anywayyyy..) Hm, I need to blog more on this baby. Not just when I'm all angry/sad and stuff.

Okay, okay, so since the last time I've blogged on here, which God knows when.... I still get worried about a bunch of things, but I've learned to let a lot of shit go. Which has led me to I guess you can say a chiller lifestyle. Minus my schooling, IDK what is happening with that. I'm aware I'm doing sub-par, I just can't push myself like I used to. I feel like even in high school I was a little more motivated than this crap. Slipping, as in just getting C's.. wtf man, I def can do better. I don't know what's wrong :\

I do feel like something is missing though. Emptiness. Like hole in my heart. Cheesy, whatever. In high school, I had show choir, drum corps, gdt.. and stuff. Things that really made my soul happy (despite team drama). Now I'm just a working machine and going to school. I need a musical outlet I guess you could say. Writing on a blog does help though. But yeah, just something. Idk, I'm trying to ball at the rec more often. I don't know why I didn't play the way I play now, in high school. -__- but I know basketball won't do it for me. Basketball was never my one true love. When I joined JV in high school and Drum Corps, I knew I would choose Drum Corps over basketball. That connection with music is so much more fulfilling, so much more gratifying, words can't really explain. And your own beats are out there for the whole city to see? Pretty cool. Idk, I'm not tryna reminisce on high school right now or anything, just making a comparison. What I'm trying to say is, I need something. I'm missing something.