falling down.

I keep thinking I smell things. It's so weird. Lately it's been cigarettes and wine. I hope I'm not crazy :\

Spookfest was amazing. Whoever said you have to roll at a rave to have fun is really fucking stupid. I had fun drunk and sober! People just don't know how to party these days. keke. TAO needs to come sooner. I'm so excited!

Shleeepy. Haven't been to class lately, personal struggles. Hasn't been my cup of tea these pasts couple weeks. I miss certain friends. I feel like I haven't seen or kicked it with them in so long. I was just looking at old facebook pictures and I miss a lot of my friends. I feel so distant from a lot of them now. Maybe it's because we're getting older and people grow apart. I don't know. I miss Eric the most. I never see him anymore. I don't get any texts back either.

Really confused now. Like more than ever. It didn't even feel right. I don't know where I am anymore. I think I know, but IDKKK. Especially right after you lied about something so important...again.. Am I supposed to run back to you like this? This isn't how it played out in my head.

Praying for sanity and a stronger heart. The rewind button would come in handy right now. For now, I'll just close my eyes.