it's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along.

hello back again. i'm probably gonna blog everyday now that school's offa my hands.
so i just came back from downtown with elaine. got 11 job applications. i think i have to be over 18 for some of them. the ones i really want to work for are puma, planet funk (i think you have to be 18?), vans, steve madden, and lids. hahah lids. oh jeez. i'm breaking out like a bitch! oh dear. haha random but i felt a blemish coming on. anyway, hopefully regina can get me a job at like the hundreds? idk i'll do anything, i just need that dolla dolla!

so earlier this morning. my two closest friends were pissing the shit out of me. like ughhh. so i talked to E about it and she was saying how it's rude for me to lag when they're outside to pick me up. like ugh you showed up right outside my house when i didn't even ask you to. you said A called me, but i was in the shower so how could i have known -_____- &you expect me to be ready? we're getting job applications dude. but we ended up not getting them and going to O's work. like okay? i didn't even eat, well because i was pissed. but anyway. i know i run on filipino time and i'm late, but i'm talking about today and not about the previous times. yes i'm sorry about them, don't get me wrong, of course i feel bad. but today's incident doesnt mean you have to be putting "hella rude" and "we are often put in difficult situations &its up to us to make the best of it" in your away messages cause you know i'll look at it. wtf what grade are we in? and then A says to E: "your away message inspires me!" like wow that's immature. thanks. we're supposed to be close friends, and just cause i'm irritating you doesnt mean you can treat me like a bitch you've hated since 2nd grade. c'mon now.

i'm glad i can turn to my '09 friends though. like forreal, there's no drama. don't get me wrong, i love my close ones in my grade, but these guys know wsup. keep me grounded. ilovethem<3 but i think it's cus i've been kicking it with E and A like pretty much every day, so we're bound to get sick of each other. its cool, i'm not trippin.

UGH WAY TO BAIL ON ME TODAY BRUH. =/ thought we were gonna have a good time today? guess not. whatever. this pretty much shows me you can't even commit to a couple hours at the beach...when we even set it up beforehand. it's my fault for taking you for granted, but we both stopped talking to each other at the same time. but idk what's your deal. honestly you were hella boring. shit seriously like just texting? the phone convos would be like 4 times total. idk i shouldn't expect so much outta boys. i don't know why i do! haha maybe cus i'm used to having them call. i guess. whatever. i'm so whatever about guys now. they just give me bullshit excuses. i try to make things work, they just don't reciprocate. moving on..